scarcity

I had a call interview at 8PM yesterday. It's not an interview for some job application or internship. It was for an upcoming Korean Speech Contest, that I'm joining for my second time.   What happened during the whole conversation was what upset me so much and drive me crazier that I feel the urge to tell it here. In conclusion, I screw up. I screw up so bad I ponder on what exactly I did all this time? What did I do? Selama ni belajar apa?  Almost cried after we hang up our phone but then I started to think of all the situations that brought me here. That typical brainwash episode you have so that you can find reasons to blame others instead of yourself. 1) I'm exhausted. And I do! Fasting all day long under the hot sun. Tuesday is my most packed day ever compare to other days. I've class straight until 7PM. My last class was a volleyball training at the beach court. I'm guessing that burn me out. 2) Late notification. I received a message from the inte

Earlier of this year if I am correct, Malaysian have a little battle on why the movie Beauty and The Beast doesn't get a chance to air in the cinema unlike any other movies. Rumors had it it was due to a short clip that was claimed as a 'gay scene', too gay for a decent Malaysian. The film board decided it with all due respect to Islam, since any decisions that are being taken in Malaysia must favor to Muslims first before it is cater to other religion that are free to practice here in the country. But worry not because usually at the end, the decision must be made through concrete analysis based on firm reasons. So no bias decision here. No upper hand too. (Go google it yourself why they ban it)  Okay long story short, what I was trying to tell here is that how the arguments on the decision of banning Beauty and The Beast were on fire. I literally swayed my opinions left and right after reading some debate and in which make me realize one thing; getting to know myse

  Am already in the 3rd week of my 2nd semester of 2016 academic year. Am already 4 months away for my industrial training which I wish to just be 30 minutes by car from my house because economy is getting worse and I am a cheapskate to withdraw my savings on gas and toll (read: I prioritize money on food). Emerging to a more intense semester I have definitely spend more times reflecting my past mistakes in studying and socializing or communicating whatever you call it. Long story short, for the very first time ever my semester pointer skyrocket.. Legit. You may imagine me screaming in front of my laptop's screen scrolling my result for hundreds time to feel amaze of my grade. But rather than that, I felt a bit strange. It is like the Lord is trying to sent me a clue. Some sort of message to wake me up from dreaming. It was like He was showing me His ultimate power of almighty.   Of course I did some listing to compare myself from previous semester to this glorious one. W

Ya Allah, I don't know why is it lately, I feel so distracted. I feel lost in my own track that I have originally planned to be a perfect pathway for me to reach my goals at the end of this semester. I am just so lost. In the middle, of nowhere.  For the past few weeks I have immersed (not intentionally of course) myself with few events that turned out to be cancelled at the end because of some problems that we, the crew just cannot find a solution for it. It was so devastating for me since I have poured all my energy to it, I have wasted quite a few times of study because of them. I missed the morning class to compensate all my times for sleep. My schedule went all over the places. I couldn't not even handle myself anymore. Nevertheless, I am just a normal human being. And I need rest. For God sake, how on earth people survived university's life? 4 more weeks to final and I've already feel numb. Today's post will be slightly a deeper thoughts than

UKM, Kampus Bangi:- Pertandingan Wind Orchestra anjuran Kolej Pendeta Za'ba Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia telah diadakan sepanjang 12 Mac hingga 13 Mac 2016 and it was the best program I have ever joined. Believe me I will never regret for joining the team to conduct our college's first wind orchestra competition. Who were the winner? Alam Shah, Putrajaya won the first place followed by SSP, Cyberjaya and last but not least, Tunku Kurshiah College took over the third place. Congratulation to everyone, menang and yang tak menang, each of you, you have did your best. For any competition, selain ranking, pengalaman tu yang lebih penting untuk disimpan untuk kita improvise diri kita in the next competition. The funny part, saya dengan seorang lagi kru jadi runner untuk sekolah SAS. (Maksudnya kena pastikan diorang dengar taklimat, usher diorang bila masa nak buat persembahan, jaga barang diorang, pastikan susunan diorang teratur and etc), so bila diorang menang de