scarcity

I had a call interview at 8PM yesterday. It's not an interview for some job application or internship. It was for an upcoming Korean Speech Contest, that I'm joining for my second time.   What happened during the whole conversation was what upset me so much and drive me crazier that I feel the urge to tell it here. In conclusion, I screw up. I screw up so bad I ponder on what exactly I did all this time? What did I do? Selama ni belajar apa?  Almost cried after we hang up our phone but then I started to think of all the situations that brought me here. That typical brainwash episode you have so that you can find reasons to blame others instead of yourself. 1) I'm exhausted. And I do! Fasting all day long under the hot sun. Tuesday is my most packed day ever compare to other days. I've class straight until 7PM. My last class was a volleyball training at the beach court. I'm guessing that burn me out. 2) Late notification. I received a message from the inte

Wasn't a real fanatic one tho. Was more a simpler fan. Bought their albums (I bought 3 to be precised) but not to the extend hang up their poster on my bedroom wall. Never have I ever went to any Kpop concert before or even thought slightly of going to. You could say I'm a nerd fan.   Two days ago, I went through my music files to play some songs. My arrow was hovering on the screen until it stopped at 'Korean' music files. And I was like, 'It has been ages!'. Back then when I was a Kpop fan, EXO and Girls' Generation were two my favourite groups. It's so weird to think because I like English songs as well. Jojo and Hillary Duff are indeed have the best music! However, why I didn't buy their official goods? Jojo (Source: Ecorazzi )   At first, I chose not to listen to the file again but somehow without I realized, Dont Go by EXO has already played. While listening, I made a reflection and questioning myself,  'Why did I like them