scarcity

I had a call interview at 8PM yesterday. It's not an interview for some job application or internship. It was for an upcoming Korean Speech Contest, that I'm joining for my second time.   What happened during the whole conversation was what upset me so much and drive me crazier that I feel the urge to tell it here. In conclusion, I screw up. I screw up so bad I ponder on what exactly I did all this time? What did I do? Selama ni belajar apa?  Almost cried after we hang up our phone but then I started to think of all the situations that brought me here. That typical brainwash episode you have so that you can find reasons to blame others instead of yourself. 1) I'm exhausted. And I do! Fasting all day long under the hot sun. Tuesday is my most packed day ever compare to other days. I've class straight until 7PM. My last class was a volleyball training at the beach court. I'm guessing that burn me out. 2) Late notification. I received a message from the inte