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I had a call interview at 8PM yesterday. It's not an interview for some job application or internship. It was for an upcoming Korean Speech Contest, that I'm joining for my second time.   What happened during the whole conversation was what upset me so much and drive me crazier that I feel the urge to tell it here. In conclusion, I screw up. I screw up so bad I ponder on what exactly I did all this time? What did I do? Selama ni belajar apa?  Almost cried after we hang up our phone but then I started to think of all the situations that brought me here. That typical brainwash episode you have so that you can find reasons to blame others instead of yourself. 1) I'm exhausted. And I do! Fasting all day long under the hot sun. Tuesday is my most packed day ever compare to other days. I've class straight until 7PM. My last class was a volleyball training at the beach court. I'm guessing that burn me out. 2) Late notification. I received a message from the inte

Finally, the Transformers movie has continued with their latest series which is without being oblivion about it, The Last Knight. The box-office was released starting on 20th June with USA marked as the first country to have the science fiction/thriller film on screen followed by other countries onward. A little preview in sentences that I shamelessly steal from google because why not make full use of the 'copy & paste' tool. Humans are at war with the Transformers, and Optimus Prime is gone. The key to saving the future lies buried in the secrets of the past and the hidden history of Transformers on Earth. Now it's up too the unlikely alliance of inventor Cade Yeager, Bumblebee, an English lord and an Oxford professor to save the world. I have never done a review on a film before, exclusive case of doing a critic among my peers after we watched a movie together in a group. This time I just had the urge to do it because of how disappointed I am with the wh

Earlier of this year if I am correct, Malaysian have a little battle on why the movie Beauty and The Beast doesn't get a chance to air in the cinema unlike any other movies. Rumors had it it was due to a short clip that was claimed as a 'gay scene', too gay for a decent Malaysian. The film board decided it with all due respect to Islam, since any decisions that are being taken in Malaysia must favor to Muslims first before it is cater to other religion that are free to practice here in the country. But worry not because usually at the end, the decision must be made through concrete analysis based on firm reasons. So no bias decision here. No upper hand too. (Go google it yourself why they ban it)  Okay long story short, what I was trying to tell here is that how the arguments on the decision of banning Beauty and The Beast were on fire. I literally swayed my opinions left and right after reading some debate and in which make me realize one thing; getting to know myse

Not to the whole people who likes cats. Just this particular one. Because jyeah it's her birthday! Nurizzati Eureka. Eh . By the way Zatie, this post will probably make you cringe on your chair and question the whole universe why on earth would you stuck with a person like me. Admit it. Aku pun.  So when I first thought of writing this post, I have imagined a hell-long-babbling post about you, okay mungkin include the good things that you have done to me after knowing each other for 9 years. Bruh it's real, we are going to hit 10 years of love-and-hate friendship! Oh and might do a bit recap of your embarrassing moment we did masa sekolah menengah, since that's all the time we actually had together the most before we entered matriculation college. Before we parted away. Like freaking away. (ps: Aku check google map. It's 300 km away gurl. Dah boleh naik kapal terbang acah jumpa kawan belajar oversea hahaha.)   Long-post is no need. You don't

  Am already in the 3rd week of my 2nd semester of 2016 academic year. Am already 4 months away for my industrial training which I wish to just be 30 minutes by car from my house because economy is getting worse and I am a cheapskate to withdraw my savings on gas and toll (read: I prioritize money on food). Emerging to a more intense semester I have definitely spend more times reflecting my past mistakes in studying and socializing or communicating whatever you call it. Long story short, for the very first time ever my semester pointer skyrocket.. Legit. You may imagine me screaming in front of my laptop's screen scrolling my result for hundreds time to feel amaze of my grade. But rather than that, I felt a bit strange. It is like the Lord is trying to sent me a clue. Some sort of message to wake me up from dreaming. It was like He was showing me His ultimate power of almighty.   Of course I did some listing to compare myself from previous semester to this glorious one. W

  The other day I stumbled upon a post saying how sickening it is friendship nowadays that some of us just tend to fade it away as saying that you shouldn't trust your people easily, prioritize yourself and forget the others. "Life is a big game you should learn to gamble it.". Literally what I have summarize from all the content under the topic 'Friend'.    Sometimes I wonder, why is it so hard for some people to just be kind to each other? What are the cons to be kind to the world? " People are going to step on you honey. That' why. So don't be nice. " I mean really? That's all the bad side of being kind you can give after what happened in your circumstance? I'm truly taken aback when I ponder on this issue and I can simply say, some don't learn enough to understand these trust issue. Sitting still and doing nothing are two different thing. So does, being kind and being dumb are two- Completely. Different thing.