Functional Freeze: but I Keep On Updating It

 

this will be a growing post as I intended to type this in, and comeback to it to reflect on it. I know I could just leave in draft, but posting it will pressure me to update it as soon as I should.

Originally posted on 30th August

Functional Freeze.

Can't believe there's a term for a condition I lived in entirely. I cannot describe this in better words. Ergo, I let Google to help you to find out the meaning behind it, while I bed-rotting on same Wild Child scene because I love Poppy's a-hole attitude. Come on, I did't start it, it wasn't my fault, and if this were America, I would sue. *Cue protagonist 

  

  Additionally, I need to point out I'm not sure if I like living in a world in which every situation we live has a very specific term to it. Don't you feel creepy about it? When I saw a reel from a certified therapist (apparently), they said 2 factors are contributing to me feeling freeze or stuck. I have always thought it was because I don't have life goals. Technically when you don't set yourself to a specific dream, you are most likely to space out, living your life just for the sake of breathing in and out. It was trauma and stress by the way. I know right, shocking. Then, how do we get out of it?

  

Common suggestion is to do visualisation. Ahah, I knew it! It's because I didn't have a life goal. If I have a life goal, then I can visualise my future, in turn, will move my nervous systems to go to work in the right direction. They actually find the cure for it! Alright, so let's pretend that it had its desired effect shall we?

Screw them, as of now, it doesn't have the desired effect.

Sometimes, I wish specialist just narrow down all this terms, and blame it on basic thing like, "Oh you are bed-rotting because you don't have goals." instead of making up a name for it. No jokes, there are numerous infographics and a complete brain map literally pointing it out, "Ok Izyan, this is the reason you feel stuck, remember the trauma that got you in 2013?". We should applaud researcher for finding out the cure and all, but it seems excessive, at this point.

  Work's goal is strenuous enough, now I have to make my own life goal? It's imperative that I make a phone call to my mom and ask her to create a KPI for me. After all, she has been through it, she would know what's best for me, isn't? Or should I be normal and let Instagram algorithm provide more intentional reels that cater to my needs or should I manifest?

My mind is fogging now, I think we should continue brainstorming after I finish this movie.

For like the tenth time.

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