scarcity

  The other day I stumbled upon a post saying how sickening it is friendship nowadays that some of us just tend to fade it away as saying that you shouldn't trust your people easily, prioritize yourself and forget the others. "Life is a big game you should learn to gamble it.". Literally what I have summarize from all the content under the topic 'Friend'.    Sometimes I wonder, why is it so hard for some people to just be kind to each other? What are the cons to be kind to the world? " People are going to step on you honey. That' why. So don't be nice. " I mean really? That's all the bad side of being kind you can give after what happened in your circumstance? I'm truly taken aback when I ponder on this issue and I can simply say, some don't learn enough to understand these trust issue. Sitting still and doing nothing are two different thing. So does, being kind and being dumb are two- Completely. Different thing.

Ya Allah, I don't know why is it lately, I feel so distracted. I feel lost in my own track that I have originally planned to be a perfect pathway for me to reach my goals at the end of this semester. I am just so lost. In the middle, of nowhere.  For the past few weeks I have immersed (not intentionally of course) myself with few events that turned out to be cancelled at the end because of some problems that we, the crew just cannot find a solution for it. It was so devastating for me since I have poured all my energy to it, I have wasted quite a few times of study because of them. I missed the morning class to compensate all my times for sleep. My schedule went all over the places. I couldn't not even handle myself anymore. Nevertheless, I am just a normal human being. And I need rest. For God sake, how on earth people survived university's life? 4 more weeks to final and I've already feel numb. Today's post will be slightly a deeper thoughts than