scarcity

Note: If you thought that this is a review of a Netflix series, I'm truly sorry but you may exit my blog thank you because this entire post will rant on my only Cal White (lulz nama fancy betul). We both are almost done with our undergraduate degree, stepping in into our final year is honestly feel like stepping in-  alaa semua tahu. Ya neraka. A bit of a hell because at this timeline, running on a treadmill 100 km/h in the dark could be a perfect description. We went to lecture after lecture, meeting after meeting, another extra class, stay up in the morning after we can't sleep at night, doing assignment after assignment. Tiba-tiba je esok ada kuiz.  We all worn out, and dying to get out from here. Wholeheartedly, the only factor that push me to get through this is because of the people around me. Yea they might not feel the same as me but I genuinely appreciate every person that have crossed my path. Especially Syaza Syahirah or namely Cal White hehe that's wh

I had a call interview at 8PM yesterday. It's not an interview for some job application or internship. It was for an upcoming Korean Speech Contest, that I'm joining for my second time.   What happened during the whole conversation was what upset me so much and drive me crazier that I feel the urge to tell it here. In conclusion, I screw up. I screw up so bad I ponder on what exactly I did all this time? What did I do? Selama ni belajar apa?  Almost cried after we hang up our phone but then I started to think of all the situations that brought me here. That typical brainwash episode you have so that you can find reasons to blame others instead of yourself. 1) I'm exhausted. And I do! Fasting all day long under the hot sun. Tuesday is my most packed day ever compare to other days. I've class straight until 7PM. My last class was a volleyball training at the beach court. I'm guessing that burn me out. 2) Late notification. I received a message from the inte